I'm so tired after so much

You left and came back changed . even a blind men can see,
Perhaps a better view for other unlike me. A change in every bit.Piss me off everytime.
I can see i can hear i can feel. i know what i know. You are what u are . if u think this will work i'll answer ,no.
Obvious t me maybe others. eyes are around. Maybe using me perhaps. i don't know. i dont want to be paranoid and might misuderstand you. whats ur intention? i cant see. you dont show no one can see. what i see is a very evil side of you. i bear and wait. what will be the outcome, im not ready. but i cant see anything. im lost in somewhere that makes me depressed.
I might wait, till when? u might try? show to who? i can't see. im willing to do it all. are u willing to show that small token t me? what ever the start is always beautiful. did not expect such to happen. all this is all unpredictable. i promise ill wait and initiate all the time. but when my time comes . you better be ready. i dont know when. i just keep this as a deep secret,. no one i've shared but im well-prepared to. treasure or dont cry when its gone.